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I haven’t written here because I think of this as the place I write about cancer, and I haven’t really had space or time to think about cancer. The “third day” did hit after the first round of chemo, and … Continue reading
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Lucas had his planned spinal fusion surgery on Tuesday, and he is recovering as well as possible. He is really annoyed with the hospital nurses for messing with him too often and complaining about pain. Poor kid. I feel like … Continue reading
On Tuesday I got my first round of chemo. Have I mentioned that, despite knowing so many people who have had cancer, I didn’t really know what “chemo” meant before my diagnosis? (I blame living outside the U.S. when I … Continue reading
Our upcoming treatment calendar: I am afraid of chemo (hence the “Lions and Tigers and Bears…”) I start next week, November 7. Lucas will have surgery on Tuesday, Nov. 14, and likely be at the hospital for 5-7 days. My … Continue reading
The numbers are in. Based on my oncotype score (a measure of receptiveness to chemo) I might, by very slight statistical margins, benefit from chemo. I was tempted to just write I’m getting chemo, because that’s also true. It … Continue reading
I went swimming yesterday! It felt glorious to feel myself pull through the water, to feel myself as strong as before, even as I was trying to also heed the warnings of my physical therapist not to use my arms … Continue reading
I have been avoiding writing about Lucas and his care here in part because I think (I fear?) that my family will get sick of me writing about them. Over the past year I’ve been proud to publish my writing … Continue reading
I am two weeks out of surgery, and I am here to tell you I feel shockingly good. I’m almost afraid to say it, like I need to knock on wood. But of course there will eventually be more hard … Continue reading
My drains are out! I went in yesterday morning, the nurse said take a big breath in, then she told me to exhale it all as she pulled a quarter mile of tubing out from inside me. Or something like … Continue reading
I remember learning from homebirth midwives about creating a quiet, safe and sacred space at home because birth requires so much surrender. Physically, emotionally, psychically being able to soften, release, let two bodies that have been nestled together go through … Continue reading